Come back please

This full moon has been particularly hard, messing with my emotions, letting insecurities creep in and mess with my head, making me feel flat, then up and down. I look at the above picture and wonder where that woman is?.... she looks so carefree, giggly, happy....! Hopefully she will be back soon as I don't like feeling this way...the way I used to feel when I was younger and less confident, questioning my hubby's feelings for me, questioning, head whirring into places it shouldn't go! Right, off to do some positive crafty things to try and shoo these insecurities away.

Struggling

This year I just feel a little 'lost' - spiritually mainly. I have never been religious but the older I get the more I need something. I'm delving into paganism to try and help my searching. I think I would like to visit a medium too.

I'm also finding that the moon plays a huge part on my emotions/hormones. I've been meaning to record my menstrual cycle with the moon but I haven't got around to it yet - must make the effort this evening. With this new moon my emotions have been all over the place, especially with regards my Dad. I don't really know how to explain the relationship I have with him (and you'll have to forgive my ramblings but it's eating away at me) suffice to say I'm angry, disappointed and sad. I wish I had the courage to tell him how he's hurt me over the years but I know he'll just never talk to me again and that's not what I want. It's funny how you read about child abuse; how hitting children it wrong; but I've found that's it's always the little things which have upset me (or maybe they aren't really that small in hindsight!). I don't know. I think I'll have to write some of them down somewhere - at least let them out of my head and heart before it does anymore damage.